Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Feelings

It is too soon to be blogging again, but the predictably, unpredictable happened and the itch to blog - - - - well it followed. The happening is the engagement of my first grandchild, Ita.

It is kinda like being kicked up a generation, but not quite;
it is kinda like being rattled into maturity, but not quite;
it is kinda like being violently shaken awake and realizing this is old age, but not quite.

Yes, I am now in a new category, not quite another generation. Maturity? Well I don't really believe in that. If you've read this blog, you know a bit of how I feel about maturity. As for old age - sure I feel some of the 'infirmities of old age'*, some 'weakening of . . . parts'*, much 'slowing of energies'*, but not too much dulling of this 'aggressive mind'*.

Well, what is it really like?

It is a warm glow enveloping me, with an underlying sizzle of excitement. I dont quite know where to put myself. The facts on the ground say I am 'there' ('there' being some advanced stage in life) but I just dont feel it, or I refuse to acknowledge it.

Ita, your new status hasnt changed me, except - I can say it all, pretty much, in just one word: HAPPY!!! - I am happy!!! Your happiness, Ita, is infectious; it vibrates all the way over here in Israel.

Aaron, you must be special. What I hear about you, all sounds just so right. I am glad you found each other, and that you recognized the qualities in each other to make this momentous and joyous decision.